Day 35: Stress, etc. (+ a bit graphic at the end)

Tomorrow is Sept. 15, which is my mother’s Death Day. While she died a long time ago, it was and is particularly traumatic for me and I miss her…ghods, with all my heart. Mind you she was a difficult woman in many ways, but she loved me and she was smart as a whip and she had a great sense of humor. She bequethed to me her terrible experiences with being overweight, but alas, I don’t think she quite bequethed to me her stellar good looks (she was, to the day she died, quite beautiful). Sometimes life isn’t fair, and this is definately one of those times! So today and tomorrow I am stressed out and semi-depressed and we’ll have to see how well SLD counteracts that.

Of course is does not help that I flummoxed my timing on the 2-hour window. Bats. The irony here is that I had 1/2 of an apple after I got back from my morning run (1 hour! Avg. HR 138! Six speed intervals! Wooohooo!) and then…nothing. No hunger at all. In fact even my morning coffee was “too much” and so I drank it sippy-sippy style, which took two hours, and before I knew it 11:30 was coming up and I was supposed to be getting ready for lunch. Uh…SW at 10am? Hello? So SW happened closer to 12noon and lunch at 1pm. Not much of an upset, but still, annoying. And “lunch” is just my juice/ACV mix anyway, so not much to freak out about there.

TOM is still hanging in, quite heavy. Everyone says that menopause is a b!tch but really, I can’t wait! Bring on the hot flashes, baby, I’m tired of bleeding like a stuck pig…

Day 33: Weigh In + TOM + Nick Frost

This morning I clocked at 203.2. No surprise there, my TOM just started yesterday so I knew I’d go up. The amazing thing is that I started this at 207, and so even with bloat I’ve not retrograded too much. Last night I wanted some chocolate (well you know, it’s a girl thing) and I had about seven dark chocolate M&Ms out of a small bag, and then stopped. I did not stop because I felt guilty or ashamed or because I was consciously trying to “diet.” I stopped because seven was enough. I did not feel compelled to eat any more than that. I wanted a taste, I got a taste, and I was satisfied. If words could express how incredibly amazing that fact is, I would write them.

I’ve been on SLD for a month. What an life-changing experience! I want to stand out on a street corner and hand out free copies of Seth’s book. While I have not lost a huge amount of weight I am FREE of the crazy cravings that used to rule my world, when it came to food, and if I could give that gift to the many miserable overeaters/bingers/cravers of the world, I would! I hope this blog might serve that purpose just a little. It cannot be enough.

On that note: Nick Frost. I love that man. Adore him. He’s the guy who plays lovable Sgt. Butterman in Hot Fuzz. He was in Shaun of the Dead and has done several Britcoms, usually but not always with his pal Simon Pegg. If you’ve watched his career, you know that he’s gained a lot of weight over the years. It is obvious that he was born to be a bear of a guy (yummy!), but still, his weight gain is noticeable and alarming. I keep thinking of John Candy. I wish more than anything I could send him SLD by telepathy; I don’t need him to be a twizzle stick, but I want him to be healthy and live a long time. He’s a fantastic comedian and a handsome man who needs to make a lot more movies. Please, Nick Frost, try out SLD. Save yourself for us, your fans. Not to mention maybe your family and friends?

Oh, bugger.